[writer's note: This diary is a work of fiction. I made it up. So, it has nothing to do with anybody.]
5/3/2011
Dear diary,
I think I fell in love with this boy from my class.
I think I fell in love with the boy who sits at the back of the class and constantly chuckles his friends by making jokes. I fell in love with the boy who everyone falls in love with; everyone likes him.
To be honest, to fall in love is like to jump out of a flying plane; it can either be soaring through clouds, or dropping to the earth beneath.
I am in love with his beautiful smile. He is tall, super handsome, very funny and talented too, well his name is Jace Wayland; Jace 'cutest' Wayland (this isn't Jace's real middle name but to tell you the truth, Jace is officially the cutest boy in the entire universe, I swear). If only he knew, I am so in love with him that it makes my bones ache and my head hurts from the way my thoughts never stop echoing his name. But who would fall in love back with the girl who gets random panic attack and is forever sad?
-C.
20/3/2011
Dear diary,
so today, Jace (the boy I like) did not come to school, but oh why? I was really worried about him.
There were rumours about Jace that he killed himself due to the sadness that only he knew. But why cruel world? Why???? I never saw him sad before. 'If only I could turn back time, I don't care how long it would take, I promise I would stay by your side, and help you through your darkest time, Jace.'
So, when I finally found out, it was not a rumour anymore. Its official. Jace Wayland is only an angel that gone too soon.
mood: sad, emotionless shell of mistake prone human and lacking a soul. (tears brimmed her eyes and screams filled her lungs)
-C.
21/3/2011
Dear diary,
I just found out that Jace (the boy I really really really like) left a letter to his mother apologizing for everything he has done wrong. He even wrote a letter to his teammate aka his best friend telling he was so sorry for leaving the team before the final football match this year.
But most importantly....he wrote a letter to me, the girl whom he adored from far away, the girl who used to sit in front of him in the class.
Dear Clarissa Fray,
I thought I would finally say this in front of you before I go, but I always wanted you to know that; I like you so much since the day one. You are the most beautiful girl I ever met. You are different, Clary. For every flaw you see, is undeniably beautiful to me. I love everything about you, even the way you smile, cheers me up when I'm feeling blue. I simply love everything, every little things I noticed about you. I was the boy who one time sat opposite you in the library, sneakily watching you over the top of my book (you are beautiful and I don't get tired of looking at you). I was also the boy who did not deserve to be loved by you. It was pleasure to know you, Clary. I am very lucky, I know I am.
I wouldn't mind - sleeping forever.
I wouldn't mind - a body filled with pain.
It would be all worth it - if I had dreams filled with you.
Good bye.
Lots of love,
Jace Wayland.
I miss you, Jace.
I miss you.
-C.